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Monday, 12 September 2011

  • So Freaking Frustrated/Angry/Annoyed...

    I am so upset with my fiance right now.  He has been renting a room in my parents house so that we can save money before we get married in January.  They don't charge him very much for food and rent and in return he is just expected to keep his room and bathroom clean.  It's not very difficult.  But for being a such a simple task it seems like an impossible task for him to actually follow through on.  He has been spoken to on many occasions about this and he never seems to get it.  He is very intelligent (book smart) but he is just pretty much completely common sense dumb.

    The thing is that I always take his side and defend him when he's not here and what really made me angry today is that he assumed that I never take his side.  He claims to know me so well and then he believes that I wouldnt take his side first and defend him when he's not there to defend himself?  That actually completely pissed me off.  I mean, I believe that if I  did something to upset his fmaily that before he heard everything he would take my side and defend me.  I dont believe that I would need to be TOLD that he defended me.

    Does everything need to be spelled out for him?  I could see the need to spell something out in the beginning...but it has been months!

    I always say that he was raised differently....they had different standards....he's a guy....he's 23....

    I ALWAYS have excuses for him.

    The thing was that this time it was important for my mom that the bathroom be clean because my brother and his family were visiting and they (my brother and his wife) were going to have to use that bathroom as well.  My fiance semi cleaned the bathroom...somehow he missed the mold on the shower curtain on the inside of the shower....I really have no idea how you could miss that...  Anyway, I told him that if he missed it before they came he surely saw it after they came and could have fixed it then....he didn't...

    Then, he probably pissed of every member of my immediate family with little comments that he made.  Isn't one supposed to be on their best behavior with their significant others family before the wedding?  I would imagine that's how it's supposed to be.

    Now, I'm not really one to hold my tongue and watch what I say, but I recognize that there is a time and place for everything and there is a time and place to watch what you say.  You cannot always say whatever the hell pops into your head.  You need to think and then speak.  It's funny when a small child says something without thinking or knowing what they said...not so much when the person not thinking is a 23-year-old male.

    I love him so much...no matter what...but you're supposed to be able to bend...not be so stuck in your ways.

    I don't understand why he doesn't seem to understand what is expected of him.  After all, it isn't actually that much.

Sunday, 21 November 2010

  • Conversation that must happen eventually

    I've been engaged for just over a month now and we're planning on getting married on January 7, 2012.  We're both Catholic, though I'm a bit more easygoing about my religion.  I know that I don't want children right away.  I'd like us to have some time to ourselves before we have children and there's also the fact that we really can't afford children in the near future.  He's one of those people that are against birth control.  I realize that this is a conversation that he and I need to have and I'm totally unsure as to how I should bring it up.  I know that I have good points as to why we shouldn't have children soon after we get married.  I also know that I don't want to be one of those women that secretly take birth control (totally not honest).

    I know that no matter what he is the one I'm going to marry but I also know that we need to have this conversation.

Monday, 12 July 2010

  • Currently
    The Gun Seller
    By Hugh Laurie
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    Astrology

    I was reading about my birthdate/personality...it said this:

    "Your mind is like the tides which are also controlled by the Moon - one moment high - next moment low. Your Karmic challenge is to learn the proper control of feelings. When to express and when to hold back."

    It's so true.  It does always seem that at one moment I'm happy and the next I'm down and out.

Friday, 02 July 2010

  • Currently
    The Good Fairies of New York
    By Martin Millar
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    Insomnia

    *sigh* It's getting ridiculous.  I can't sleep at night.  I ususally end up bein awake until like 4am.  I really hate it.  What I'd really like is to go to bed and fall asleep before midnight.  My Mom gave me melatonin, but that didn't really work and I'd prefer to not take any prescriptions for it...I'm hoping that I don't need to take something like that for it anyway.

    Anyone know of any natural ways to solve a sleep problem?

Monday, 26 April 2010

  • Currently
    Comatose
    By Skillet
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    Falling Rain

    It's another sleepless night
    As I sit thinking
    Staring into another starless sky

    The rain continues falling
    Softly hitting the ground and
    Erasing the memories of the day

    I'm hoping that tomorrow
    Will be better
    Anything will be an improvement

    Darkness continues on
    In a seemingly endless path
    Nothing ever changes, it always stays the same

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